Celebrations and Deliberations

Hey there! I have been so conflicted lately because I have had so much to say and I couldn't possibly narrow things down and choose my thoughts and words carefully. Nah, that would be too much like right. Instead, I chose to be silent until I felt as if I had a more clear picture of what I wanted to blog about. So, here goes...

Celebrations: I'm definitely one who celebrates the triumphs and I try to be the kind of person who celebrates in the midst of my trials. My first triumph was making it to my 1 month natural-verssary. It doesn't sound like a big deal, but for me, it was. If you want to know how you REALLY feel about yourself, cut your hair off and fore go the perm. I learned that I do have a great amount of self love, but I wouldn't be honest with you or myself if I made it appear that there weren't moments I just stared in the mirror and had to remind myself about the things I liked about my face. Through good and bad hair days, perfect curls and kinks or the reality of shrinkage, I am loving this journey and how cutting my permed hair was just one of the visual signs of the transformation that I'm making on the inside and out.

Deliberations: This brings me to my deliberations, lol. I'm always thinking about love and romance. As I'm making changes and growing, I am reminded that everyone isn't sharing my experience. It's true, everyone can't go with you on your journey to your destiny. In order to make room for the life that I'm working for, I may have to leave some ideas and people behind. I've always been the type to want what I want, when I want it & if I can't have it, then I'd rather not have anything at all. Can I keep this mindset and expect to have "it all"? I definitely don't want to raise my child to have a bratty mentality. I do want her to know that it's okay to dream big, as long as you are willing to work to obtain what you want and maintain it once it's yours. That's who I am and why I am able to keep forging ahead despite obstacles. It's said that only the strong survive. I agree, but it's when the face of adversity is drop-kicking you in the throat, that you build your strength and courage. That's when I remember that I will not only continue to dream; I'm going to make it happen. No, it's not bratty-ness at all, I'm simply determined.